[Tyler] *stares at the phone as it rings for what seems like the hundreth time in the last two days, Tyler finally answers it on the fourth ring* Look Jonnie, I really don't feel like talking right now.
[Jonnie] Tyler, your son is a wreck. He says he made you upset and clearly he did because you have been ignoring our calls. We need to talk and I am afraid I can't wait until you are ready to talk. *taking a breath and softly speaking* Can I please come over?
[Tyler] Oh god, I'm sorry. I didn't want him to think I was mad at him. Yeah I guess you can come over, but ... fuck, tell him that I'm not upset with him, please. I tried to tell him while we were there. HE didn't do anything wrong.
[Jonnie] I have told him over and over again that you aren't mad at him. But, he is sensitive. I will be over in a few. My dad took Ty to the park to take his mind off of it. And no one else is here so let me leave a note and I will head over.
[Tyler] Right. I'll see you in a few. *he hangs up the phone and heads into the kitchen and starts banging pots and pans around, taking out the fixings for a lasagna and starting water to boil*
[Jonnie] *leaving a note on the counter she grabs a bag of stuff for Tyler and heads out of the house. driving and crying the whole way there. As she pulls up she sits in the driveway and bawls for a few minutes before opening the door to get out. grabbing the keys she sees the picture on her keychain. Ty sitting between them and the smiles were real. she smiles and wipes her face before heading to the door and knocking*
[Tyler] *calling out from the kitchen* It's open.
[Jonnie] *walking in and trying to smile but seeing him she feels the tears buring her eyes* Hey Tyler. *closing the door slowly behind her*
[Tyler] *not turning to look at her but continuing stirring the sauce he's making* Jonnie. You wanted to talk?
[Jonnie] *biting her lip and looking at him as he moves around the kitchen* Yes, I wanted to talk. I think I made a mistake coming here. You look busy, maybe we can talk another time.
[Tyler] Sure, sure. You go ahead and go back home. And you know, when you curl up next to Lucas tonight to go to bed you can tell him what a jerk I'm being. *he turns to look right at her* Sound like a plan?
[Jonnie] Excuse me? *looking at him and taking a few more steps inside*
[Tyler] He's still staying in your bed with you? That's what our son told me. That uncle Lucas sleeps in the same bed as you. That he always has. Care to tell me what that's about Jonnie?
[Jonnie] I know what Ty told you. He told me everything. And its been Ty that I have been snuggling with in bed. Since he can't sleep at night because his daddy hates him. *shaking her head* But you are right, Lucas does sleep in my bedroom sometimes. We don't snuggle, we sleep. Him on his side and me on mine.
[Tyler] And why is that Jonnie *ignoring the comment about Ty because it kills him inside that he's hurting his son* Why in the fuck are you sharing a bed with someone else? Is that why you won't wear your ring? Why you don't want to tell him? *his voice raises to a near shout* God, for once, tell me the truth, what is going on with Lucas?
[Jonnie] I did tell Lucas we were engaged. *looking at him and feeling his pain* Okay, what I am going to tell you is going to hurt you. I never ever wanted to hurt you. Promise me that no matter what happens you will not take it out on our Ty.
[Tyler] Jesus Jonnie how could you think I'd do that? You could tell me he's not mine and I wouldn't take it out on him. You really don't know me at all do you? *turning and emptying the pot of noodles into the colander*
[Jonnie] Well you don't have to worry about me ever telling you that. He is you all the way. *smiling nervously* I lied to you, but I thought I was doing it for the right reasons. Now I see that I made it worse. When you and I talked about the past 5 years without each other. I told you I dated and that's true, but I did love someone else. Not like I love you, never like I loved you. But, I couldn't risk losing you so I didn't tell you.
[Tyler] *starting to layer the lasagna he looks up at her* So tell me. I know what you're going to say, but I need to hear it from you.
[Jonnie] Lucas and I were together. You know it, I don't know why you need to make me intentionally hurt you. *watching him and catching his eye contact* We haven't been together in awhile. And not since I found you. Incase you are wondering.
[Tyler] Then WHY is he still sleeping with you? Why are you letting him fight so hard to get you? All it's doing it hurting all of us! Jonnie, you know as well as I do that every time he lays down beside you he thinks he's got a chance. and frankly I don't blame him. That's what I would think. Because if you were really committed to me, if you really were done with him, if you REALLY wanted to marry me, you would have laid down some ground rules. For example, umm ... let me think? Oh yeah, you can't share a fucking BED!
[Jonnie] If you and Luke actually talked without getting pissed at each other you would know he has rules. A bunch of them. Sharing a bed doesn't mean anything to me because when he almost died I slept beside him in the hospital bed until he woke up. Then he slept next to me when I was in labor. After that its just what we did. We don't do it for sex or for anything other than we don't like to be alone. He is my best friend.
[Tyler] Ok Jonnie. He has rules. Why don't you?
[Jonnie] What rules, sleep next to you every night? Believe me. I would if you told me to pack up and move in.
[Tyler] No Jonnie, not sleep next to me every night. *steadily working, watching his hands as they layer sauce, cheese and noodles* Just not sleep with anyone else. *quietly* I really don't think that's too much to ask for. And please don't tell me that it's "not like that" because if it was that innocent you wouldn't have hidden it from me. You're hurting me, your hurting my brother, and poor Ty is confused. He thinks I hate him because he spilled your secret. Do you think that would have happened if you weren't keeping secrets like this from me in the first place?
[Jonnie] I know I am to blame. I take full responsibility for it all. Since the day Ty told me what happend Lucas moved into Ty's room and Ty stays with me. But, the hurt is there. I see it, I feel it. *playing with one of his spice bottles* I was so excited when we found each other again. I just wanted it to be perfect and finally work for us. Because now we share a son. Its bigger than just us.
[Tyler] You can't build a solid relationship on lies and manipulation. It doesn't work like that. I know this is bigger than the both of us. And it's bigger than just us and Ty. This affects everyone, Lucas, Joey, your dad. Everyone. *putting the pan in the oven and turning to look at her again* You know I just don't know if I can deal with this drama. I'm not sure I even ... *pausing and taking a shaky breath* I'm not sure I even want to. Not for someone who can't even be honest until she's caught.
[Jonnie] *nodding her head and taking off a necklace that had her engagement ring on it* Here, this is yours. I am a liar and a horrible person. I don't deserve it. I want to fight for us, but I can't fight alone. Maybe I will just pack up and move back to Cali. Sorry I hurt you Tyler. I never meant to.
[Tyler] *Refusing to take back the ring, but looking at her with fire blazing in his eyes* So because you got caught I get punished? I lose my son because you didn't want to sleep alone, but you didn't want to be honest either? How is that fair?
[Jonnie] I wanted to tell you. I never wanted to ever keep anything from you. There was just so much bad blood beteween you and Lucas. I just thought I was protecting everyone. Then Ty called Lucas and begged him to come and I knew it was going to come out. But, at that point I believed Lucas when he said he wouldn't cause trouble for us.
[Tyler] You know what, you can't blame this on Luke. I would have continued ignoring his bullshit just like I have been. But now I realize he had reason for it, to keep his hopes up. He didn't cause this trouble. Answer me ont thing honestly, please. if Ty hadn't said anything, if you were still treating me like a mushroom. Keeping me in the dark and feeding me shit. Would you still be sleeping with Lucas? Were you ever planning on telling me, or stopping with him?
[Jonnie] I am not sleeping with Lucas! Sleeping beside him doesn't mean we are having sex. *looking at him and then down* Is that what you think, we are having sex behind your back?
[Tyler] What else can I think?
[Jonnie] That I deserve some credit. I mean you were gone for a long time, but I never stopped loving you Tyler. *moving closer to him* I dated your brother. I loved him in a sense. But, he was all I had to remind me of you. He knows I loved him because I lost you. Yet, he seemed to be okay with it. Then he and I fell into the best friend stage and that's all its been. For me anyways. Lucas still loves me, but I know in my heart that he's not my mr. right. He never was.
[Tyler] And you're trying to tell me that if I had my best friend, if I had Lizzy, for example, having slumber parties in my bed every other night you'd be just fine with that?
[Jonnie] I would have to be okay with it, because I love you.
[Tyler] Don't you lie to me Jonnie. And don't lie to yourself. Of course you wouldn't be okay with it. And I wouldn't expect you to be. Because she clearly has feelings for me, and it would be wrong on a dozen levels for me to do that. It would betray your trust and hurt her feelings. No matter how much we love each other, that's the truth of it.
[Jonnie] At some point you will figure out that you are my everything. But, until then maybe you should date Lizzy and I should just give you space to do your thing.
[Tyler] See? See that, Right there? All I had to do was mention her name for you to get jealous, want to break up, and tell me to date her. Now tell me how I was supposed to react finding out that you're sharing a bed, however platonically, with someone who's in love with you? Huh Jonnie? In your perfect fantasy world, how did I react to this revalation? Did I just roll over and say everything will be ok because we have each other? Because It's not ok. It's not ok at all.
[Jonnie] I don't want to fight with you. I can't fight with you because I know I did the worst thing ever by keeping secrets. I am sorry for not telling you. *holding her arms around herself she looks at him* I always thought when I found you again it would be us against the world. But, my fear kept me from telling you and look what that did for me. *tears rolling down her cheeks* I do love you Tyler, more than you will ever understand. And, I can say I'm sorry a hundred times a day from now until I die but that doesn't begin to cover how sorry I really am. You deserve the truth. I will never ever lie or keep secrets again. But let actions speak louder than words, because I am sure you don't want to believe me. It's okay. I don't blame you.
[Tyler] *sitting down and looking up at her, wanting to hold her and comfort her, but unable to bring himself to do it* Dammit Jonnie. I want to believe you. I really do. But how can I? Are you hiding anything else? You dated my brother, that's fine, you know I could have dealt with that. but I don't know how to handle the rest. I love you so much it scares me. And I saw my mother fall in love with a man who manipulated and abused her for years. I'm not saying you would ever be as bad as that asshole, but I can't let myself be a doormat. I think you're right about one thing. I think I need a little space to sort this all out. But please, don't move back to Cali. Go visit, whatever. Just promise you're coming back. That you won't take my son away from me forever. Not when I just got him.
[Jonnie] I can't come here, this close to my true love and not be able to have him. I have to go back home. My step dad and Nate are letting us move in with them. I can't promise more than I will not keep Ty from you. *opening up the bag she brought she takes out pictures and videos* These are all of Ty. There are some pictures with your old friends and some family members too. I tried to take out some pictures that had Luke and I in them. If you see any just throw them away or whatever. *smiling as she sees a picture of Ty from the night he was born* He is my miracle baby.
[Tyler] *his face becoming set and hard* I see. It gets hard and you push me away and run. Again. Just like last time. Well at least this time it's your choice and not your friends. Thanks for the pictures. I won't throw away any of your pictures. They are of the three most important people in my life. This time try not to conveniently forget that I'm playing on a team with your cousin would you? Have Joey bring Ty by tomorrow, he can come to practice with me, we'll spend the day together. I'll let him know I'm not mad at him, and that no matter what he's still my boy and I love him. If that's alright with you. I'd like to spend as much time as possible with him before ... *his voice breaks for the first time in their conversation and he looks up at her with red rimmed eyes* well, before.
[Jonnie] *looking at him and crying* I wanted you to tell me not to go, to fight me. To show me that the love we once had was still there.
[Tyler] Really? Cause I wanted you to not run away from me again. I guess neither of us gets what we want today.
[Jonnie] *looking at him and then closing her eyes for a minute before walking over to try and hug him* You can fight me on this or you can hold me. I just know that right now all I want to do is hold you.
[Tyler] *Backing up a step and looking into her eyes, seeing his own pain reflected in hers* No. You can't have it both ways. Look you said you wanted me to fight you, but I asked you for a simple promise that you would come back and you couldn't even give me that. So I'm sorry. I want to hold you, I really do, but I wouldn't ever be able to let you go. And right now I need to let you go. You know you never answered me when I asked you if you'd still be lying to me, if Ty hadn't said anything. And that's enough of an answer for me right now. I love you Jonnie. And because I love you, I need to let you go. I had you on a pedastal, a high one. And you've come crashing to the ground. I need to see what life is like without regretting moving out here because it meant I lost you. I need to see you as human, and not "the one that got away' and I think you need to do the same thing. We both need to step back and take a look at our lives and decide what's best for us, and for our son. Because this whole thing is the most confusing for him, and I refuse to do that to him. Go back to California, if that's what you need. And if you decide to be with me, fully and wholly. Without lies, deception, or a puppy chasing after you while you're holding the leash and refusing to let go ... well I'll probably still be here for you.
[Jonnie] I would've told you, I told Lucas I needed to tell you. He told me not to, but this isn't about him anymore. This is about us, and Ty. *looking at him* Lucas isn't going with me . I told him to stay here and make a life for himself. To get into your life. To let the pain and hurt of the past go. So be prepared for a call from him at some point. *looking at him and wiping her face* I will not expect you to wait for me. Move on and find happiness. I am sorry Tyler, for everything. As for Ty, maybe I can talk to Nate about coming and getting him, or having Joey bring him to me. But without you I can't be here. I feel my heart breaking as we speak and this time it hurts so much more. *setting the engagement on the counter and looking at him and shaking* I love you Tyler, I always have.
[Tyler] *realizing there's nothing more to say he just looks at her. Coming to the conclusion, from her statements, that she had planned on leaving before she even came over to talk to him. For all her talk of wanting to fight for what they had, she already had an escape plan. When he speaks again all trace of emotion is gone* Yeah, I'll get together with the team attorney and have the ministry set up a shared custody portkey so that I can go out there and get him or someone can bring him here every couple of weeks. We'll figure it out. *he stands and goes to pull his lasagna out of the oven, his back turned to her so she can't see the single tear trail down his face as he says* Goodbye Jonnie.
[Jonnie] *turning to leave and then stopping and looking at him* I will leave Ty with my dad. Promise me you will tell him I loved him. You will never see me again Tyler. *she opens the door and runs out to the car, turing to look at the house and wiping away the tears. with a smile she looks at the key chain and gets into the car and speeds away*
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